December 28, 2011

Looking Back 2011


I'm back after an extended Christmas break...although not entirely optional. I had an awesome Christmas full of food and fun, but as luck would have it, my son Austin was just getting over being sick and come Christmas morning little Lia came down with it as well. And of course, after over a week of two kids coughing and sneezing all over me, it was inevitable that I would get it as well. Woke up feeling like someone had taken a cheese grater to the back of my throat, not a good feeling. Enter Theraflu and lots of oj and home made soup, my go to sickness weapons. 

December 24, 2011

The Time Has Come



Hope everyone has an awesome Christmas! And no, that's not me in the picture... although the resemblance is uncanny, haha.


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December 22, 2011

Pumped Up Kicks

vintage Pendleton blazer
 Blazer- vintage Pendleton; Shirt-thrifted; Leggings/Necklace-F21; Shoes- Zara; Hat- Nastygal;

Sorry for taking so long to post (as usual), just been so busy lately (as usual). In fact I still don't have my Christmas shopping done yet. Apparently, I'm playing the wait-until-the-very-last-minute so I can be part of the oh-crap-Christmas-is-tomorrow shopping frenzy. Every year I make a determination to start shopping months ahead of time...and every month I'm still shopping on Christmas Eve. Some things never change.

December 8, 2011

November 29, 2011

To Everything There is a Season

I'm certain some of you may think I fell off the face of the earth or decided to quit blogging, but rest assured that is not the case. Normally, I would hesitate to divulge such personal issues but I feel this is not only therapeutic for me to write down, but also may benefit others who could possibly be facing similar situations. So, apologies for those who dislike reading, but this is somewhat lengthy but important for me to get out.

For years (ever since adolescence) I have battled depression. To say I had a poor childhood would be akin to stating that the sky is blue- fairly obvious since the majority (in my mind anyways) of people would contend that they had some sort of childhood which lacked in love, sympathy, toys, or whatever the case may be. So simply stating my childhood was not satisfactory may be seen as a lame excuse, and even saying it sounds so stupidly cliche I hate that I even mention it. But yes, my childhood sucked, to put it blatantly. Not all of it, mind  you, there were quite a lot of fond and enjoyable memories of times spent on vacations, with friends, etc. But as most people know, childhood development is extremely important and can alter the direction of one's growth. One's upbringing can have quite an impact on how one turns out later in life. Suffice it to say, with all the hell I went through (and I'm not simply saying I didn't get enough toys or something silly like that, trust me, it was much worse that I care to explain) it was no wonder I grew up battling depression, anxiety and a feeling of low self worth and a fear of abandonment and rejection. I have had three different mothers not including my biological one I only met two years ago, and the only father I've ever known died a couple years ago just as we were forming a real relationship. Stupid high school issues like boyfriends, etc. made the home drama that much worse, and as I grew older, my lack of patience, quick temper and sadness become more than I could handle. The turning point came when I became pregnant with Lia last year. Never have my emotions been so screwed up so much so that after I decided I had to be put on antidepressants. I'd been on them before in my teens, but never regularly so I thought I'd try them again. After trying like four different ones, I became a zombie, with no energy or motivation to do anything, while also battling massive postpartum depression as well. I found myself staring at the computer day after day not accomplishing anything. About a week and a half ago I decided I'd had enough and decided to quit taking them. Cold turkey. Dumb move.  Most medicines don't give you enough details or facts about what happens when you stop. Any time you've built something like that into your system you have to taper down slowly to minimize withdrawals and such.Well, I didn't and I've been paying the price. On one hand, my energy has returned; unfortunately it is more often then not a panicky energy and I find myself full of anxiety. I am constantly crying randomly and feel as if all hope is lost and I have nothing to give or accomplish. I always thought I'd have a career, but now being a wife and mother I think that chance is gone and perhaps this was what I was meant to do with my life instead. I understand many are happy to do so, but if this is my purpose in life than I find myself unable to accept that I wasn't meant for more. Pure vanity, in some ways. However, I'm getting better and taking each day as it comes. I have no plans on giving up blogging as I feel lit has helped me connect with others I wouldn't have been able to otherwise and I've made some real friendships along the way.

November 20, 2011

Bury Me Deep

So, I had  planned to do a post, but if you saw me right now you'd understand why I'm not going to. The shit has really hit the fan around here, so I need a day or so to recollect myself. But no worries, I'll be back to my usual self shortly. Thanks for your understanding!

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October 31, 2011

October 21, 2011

October 14, 2011

September 27, 2011

September 14, 2011

September 2, 2011

Fall / Winter Essentials

Alright, I'm sure by now you're sick of me talking about how over summer I am. Well too bad. Just kidding. But seriously, I am. I'm impatiently waiting for the leaves to turn colors and that brisk cool air to arrive. Every now and then I peek out my window and see a slow breeze and think, "this is it, Fall is coming"- only to step outside and melt faster than a Popsicle. It's not that I don't like summer- camping, boating, parties, tanning, etc., it's that I despise - LOATHE actually,  the heat. It makes me completely lethargic and nonfunctional, not to mention that wearing makeup or any kind of hairstyle becomes pointless when you've got sweat dripping down your face.  But enough whining (for now).... until Fall/Winter actually arrives, I'll make do with planning my must haves to get me through the seasons. Below are some examples of the items I'm planning on stocking.

Sweaters:

Nothing gets me more excited for cold weather than the thought of bundling up in baggy, oversize sweaters. This is where my inner bum comes to the surface. The looser and floppier the fit, the better. I do like fitted or cable knits, but baggy is just the definition of comfort for me. Style tip: Looks great with skinny jeans, leggings, shorts, etc. But don't go too baggy on the bottom, especially if you're heavier. And bigger ladies should try to stick to a more fitted sweater to create a slimming effect.

August 23, 2011

Updates

leopard print

August 18, 2011

Cold Front

Polyvore

August 14, 2011

Gareth Pugh Fall 2011 Ready-to-Wear

August 11, 2011

I Can't Go For That

August 8, 2011

Misty Watercolor Rainbow

style

August 7, 2011

Boticca

I was recently contacted by Boticca.com to see if I would be interested in reviewing their site in a post. Normally, I'm somewhat hesitant to do so, but when I heard it was a site featuring independent designers, I thought I'd give it a shot, since I'm always in support of independent fashion. So glad I did- this site has some incredible pieces by amazing designers. I had a difficult time even choosing which pieces to show, as there are so many! Take a look at these few:

August 3, 2011

Printed

July 28, 2011

Surface to Air

July 25, 2011

Melting Pot

July 21, 2011

Plaited

July 17, 2011

LuLu*s.com Giveaway

July 11, 2011

What A Long, Strange Trip It Has Been

July 6, 2011

Young Hollywood

July 1, 2011

Get Your Kicks

June 27, 2011

Cosmic Rays

June 21, 2011

Heatwave


June 16, 2011

DIY Leather Trimmed Denim Shirt

June 8, 2011

Hardware

June 6, 2011

Doing Nothing Together


May 30, 2011

Cobalt